I’ve had this post in my head for months. It’s about fears. It’s about food. And it’s all about God. This week, I stepped out in facing my fears by making a forty day personal commitment between me and God. For forty days, I’ll move towards God and farther away from my deepest fears.
Draw near to God and He will draw near you. (James 4:8)
It’s hard to be honest with you because I don’t know who you are. You might be my neighbor, my colleague, or an acquaintance I see at the grocery story. I don’t know everyone who reads my blog, but when I’ve talked about addictions, eating disorders and overcoming in the past, I’ve heard from you.
My struggles resonate with your struggles.
So I share.
Even though my stuff is “in the past” it’s still part of my present. By talking about my struggle with food, I risk you looking at me strangely when we’re together or having you judge me or risk that you’ll gossip to others about my stuff.
But my fear are your fears. So here it goes.
Instead of facing my fears by running to God, I run to food, to substitutes for food and things to help me avoid food. While I still go to Him with most of my struggles, but I don’t lean on Him for my every need.
If you have a personal relationship with Christ, like me, He wants us to run to Him. Every time. Not just on Sunday mornings, not just when we’re in trouble, not just when we’re worried. He wants us to run to Him with our every thought, care, joy, pain and everything in between.
But who or what do you run to instead? A friend? Coffee? Shopping? Wine? Food? Sex? Exercise? Control? Manipulation? Anger? Your rights?
Our coping mechanism masks underlying fear.
Fear of the unknown
Fear of failure
Fear of succeeding
Fear of giving up control
Fear of being exposed
Fear of our insecurities
Fear of abandonment
Fear of death
Fear of who we are.
I’ve lived one decade with an eating disorder and two decades without one. That’s pretty darn good in the fight of overcoming addictive behavior. But I can’t run away from food. I face it every day. Every day I have to make choices about it and the role it has played in my life of coping with my fears and insecurities.
God has been challenging me that He wants me to run to Him even more.
He wants the same from you, too.
Because He wants all of us. He wants His perfect love to cast out all fears (1 John 4:18).
God’s asked me to come to Him instead of what brings me comfort, fulfillment and satisfaction.
He wants me to lean into Him with my fears and let Him satisfy.
As you read this,
- Are there things you should give up so He can have more of you?
- What do you run to instead of running to God?
- What do you substitute for God in overcoming your fears?
- Will you let Him take your fears and pour His perfect love into you to cast them out?
It’s scary facing your fears without the armor of what we cope with. But God’s ways are better than our ways (Isaiah 55:9). I’m ready to let Him do it. I’ve learned I can trust Him.
Will you join me by facing your fears for forty days by running to God instead of your coping mechanism? If you want to join me, I’d love to know how I can pray with you – prayer partners! You can comment below or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
If you’re not ready to face your fears for forty days, join me in another informal endeavor. I have the privilege to join Kayse Pratt at kaysepratt.com as a leader for her Simply Devoted challenge to be in God’s word every day for six weeks. She’s put together accountability groups for women to study God’s word daily. While the groups are already set up, I’ll be posting words of encouragement on my Facebook page for you to be in God’s word, too! Kayse’s passion to draw women to God’s word mirrors mine and I hope each of you can take the challenge to be in God’s word – even for a moment every day. So join me as I partner with Kayse and her readers by being intentional about being in God’s word! Come on over to the Facebook page for discussion about what you’re learning about God from His word!
I enjoy your journey. I love this idea of running toward God instead of from fears. In your next post, share with us some of the ways we can run toward God. Example: If I fear rejection at work, how do I run to God and face that fear?
Your words and experiences inspire me my friend. Somehow I see pieces of myself in your post. The fears, the struggles, the hope, the love,and more importantly, the faith in a God who loved us in every phase of our lives. I need to do this as well, “For forty days, I’ll move towards God and farther away from my deepest fears.” Thank you. Best wishes to you and your family.
Thank you for the invitation… I’m joining you in this. Will be journaling what God reveals to me in the next 40 days, starting today.
Thank you my dear, dear friends – both Lidia and Tracy. You both have both been instrumental in my own walk and have blessed me across the world with your faithful friendship and faith. It’s an honor to be along side such amazing women. Let’s do this together!
Hi Brenda, this is such a timely post for me. Quite beside your 40 day endeavour, I started a 40 day endeavour on my own. I have a goal, it is food related, but not solely for the purposes of food issues. It is a means to an end, and I feel God walking this path with me this time, because my attitude is right. So, I would so love and appreciate your prayers and I will be praying for you. I feel I am at a point of controlling that which has controlled me for so long, because my Father is involved this time. My visiting here today has left me very blessed!
God bless my friend
ps: will be tweeting you with encouragement as part of my support of you, join me?